Faith like a child

   I have decided I need to try harder to have Faith like a child in God. This is what God wants. He wants us to just trust him. I don't need to second guess if He's going to do what we want Him to do. Small children don't wander if their parents will provide for them they just trust that their needs will be met.
   God sometimes puts me in situations I cannot control just to remind me that He is in charge and not me. This phase of our lives is one of those times. The last really big situation was when we adopted Kannika. Currently, I am driving all the way across the country. Seriously about as far as you can go. I have my kids and dogs with me and my parents who are helping. Sidenote: I would never have been able to do this without them. The drive has gone great! It really has. I am not getting nearly enough sleep but it's okay my mom drives a few hours a day so I can sleep in the car. I wish I had to do less with the dogs but the kids have been so helpful after day 3 when they realized mommy really can't do it all all of the time. Makayla spent the night throwing up and part of the morning setting us back a bit in our drive. It's okay the little we could drive got us far enough. I lost both keys to the trailer lock but that worked out. My dad is awesome (and the maintenance staff at the last hotel) and got us into the trailer where all of our stuff is for the drive. I have 2 realtors trying their best to get things done on both ends of the country but due to circumstances beyond my control we will be living in a hotel for an unknown amount of time. We hope this is not more than a few weeks but we just really don't know. When I feel my heart racing and my breathing getting faster because this is A LOT to deal with. There are so many moving pieces right now (including our actual location). I just stop and pray and remind myself that God knows and really it doesn't matter. All of these situations were stressful as they were happening. In each situation I had to calm myself and force myself to calm down. The goal of this life is to glorify God not get what I want all the time.
   We can be so like children even as adults... always wanting things when we want them even if it's not what we need. I want to be like children in a different way though. I just want to trust in God and not question. At the bottom I have included the words to a song I have had on repeat lately. The very first line grabs me every time! God is not the author of confusion. God brings peace not stress. I am doing my very best to not let these things creep into my life.
I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS!

When You speak, confusion fades
Just a word and suddenly I'm not afraid
'Cause You speak and freedom reigns
There is hope in every single word You say

I don't wanna miss one word You speak
'Cause everything You say is life to me
I don't wanna miss one word You speak
Quiet my heart, I'm listening

When sorrows roar and troubles rage
You whisper peace when I don't have the words to say
I won't lose hope when storms won't break
You keep Your word, oh and Your promises will keep me safe

I don't wanna miss one word You speak
'Cause everything You say is life to me
I don't wanna miss one word You speak
So quiet my heart, I'm listening

Your ways are higher
You know just what I need
I trust You, Jesus
You see what I cannot see

I don't wanna miss one word You speak
'Cause everything You say is life to me
I don't wanna miss one word You speak
So quiet my heart, I'm listening

I don't wanna miss one word You speak
'Cause everything You say is life to me
I don't wanna miss one word You speak
So quiet my heart, I'm listening

I don't wanna miss one word You speak
'Cause everything You say is life to me
I don't wanna miss one word You speak
So quiet my heart, I'm listening

- Chris McClarney